Weary Christmas season

So tired tonight. Have accomplished some Christmas shopping and notice that most people are not in the happy holiday mood this year. Every party seems tarnished by an underlying sadness or is it me? Friends who are normally "gung ho" during the holidays seem to be pushing themselves to get into the holiday spirit. I wish that it were possible to take a pass once in awhile. I remember a cousin one year calling me and saying that she was too depressed to do Christmas, and could I do the holiday dinner? I did, it was lovely. She went to her bed for Christmas. That idea really appeals to me this evening. I should take to my bed this Christmas and dialog with the angels! John and Yoko weren't all wrong, they took to their bed and gave Peace a chance. What better way to celebrate Christmas this year!

On a more positive note, I do love hearing from old friends during the holidays, there is something about picking up the phone or dropping a line that is very satisfying.

Bah Humbug - Hallelujah

Not facing this holiday season with good thoughts. If it could only be about the celebration of the birth and life of Jesus Christ, but it isn't. And guess what, I helped create this commercial view of Christmas in my own home. There was something so inviting about doing the whole magical Santa tree thing with all the presents and filled socks. Trying to make up for what I felt was lacking in my own childhood but what I didn't realize was that what I remember most clearly about Christmas growing up was the people. The grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins all merry, laughing and breaking bread together. It was more about the gathering of clan and the sharing of food that was special. The gifts? not really. How can I correct what I created? How can I make these daughters of mine appreciate what is really important? Neither has even presented a wish list to me this year which means they really have all that they need. (Having said this, as a new teacher Kelly doesn't really make the salary to afford all that she needs in this expensive California) Any ideas?